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its the simple things in life..
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bored.. havent updated in a while.. but ive kinda forgotten what all ive done lately, so im just going to post this survery thingy on here that i copied from brittyne!
Firsts
First best friend: lindsey halliburton
First real memory of something: umm.. not too sure
First car: cant drive yet :/
First date: like 6th grade, goin to the movies with rob!
First real kiss: blake goddard ;[
First job: babysitting?
First screen name: krissy6489
First self purchased album: um maybe nsync or somethin like that
First funeral: my " big daddys " =[
First pets: dog- lassie!
First piercing/tattoo: ears
First credit card: yea still waiting for that one
First true love: not too sure what to say to this one..
First enemy: katie mittura
First big trip: florida!
First musician you remember hearing in your house: notta clue
Lasts
Last big car ride: hah.. me and hollie crusin down oak plains rd. with doug- listenin to 'idiot boyfriend'!!! ahh, memories!!
Last kiss: hah.. the other weekend.. not sayin who! ;x
Last hug: matt h
Last good cry: the other night.. i was upset about my uncle + worried about my cousin and i called up hollie, we listened to "how can i help you to say goodbye" for like an hour and just talked and cried about it together.. even though it was spent crying and being upset, that time just meant alot to me!.. i love my wruuh!
Last library book checked out: hm.. whatever the last one i checked out last year was
Last movie seen: the elizabeth smart story..
Last beverage drank: sprite
Last food consumed: weeennnddyyyss!
Last phone call: matt h
Last TV show watched: 7th heaven
Last time showered: this morning
Last shoes worn: my nikes!
Last c.d. played: one of the cd's doug burned for me!! theyre awesome!
Last item bought: would lunch today count?
Last disappointment: man.. im not going to go there
Last soda drank: sprite
Last ice cream eaten: strawberry
Last time wanting to die: never, not literally
Last time scolded: wow.. its actually been a while!
Last shirt worn: clarksville jr pro cheerleading shirt
Last website visited: livejournal.com
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;] < [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<you [...] <u>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <b>;]</b> <<you see that <u>smile</u> right there?.. i owe it all to <b>wruuh</b>!! <3 |
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[13 Oct 2003|04:14pm] |
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friday- had to go with my mom to don panchos.. hollie came with me.. hah.. that was um.. hah. not sure how to describe that! but then i went to hollies to watch identity (ahh!) then i came home. did this + that.. then went to sleep.
saturday- just layed around the house all day.. yaknow, the usual saturday thing. then got ready and went to see my brother's band's concert. doug + hollie came along. my brothers band did AMESOME.. i was so proud.. there was a record company there to watch and they signed them!!! they leave for a tour in two weeks. im so happy for my brother, no matter what obstacles have gotten in his way, he never gave up on his dream and now its came true. but im going to miss him terribly, i really dont know what im going to do ;[ after the concert me, hollie + doug sat in the car listening to the cd doug made me (its awesome!) then we went to wendys.. shelton showed up there, we were all going to go to lindseys, but then plans got changed and doug + hollie came out to my house. hah that ride out here was fun! we watched forest gump and stuff then we went and picked up emily. we just stood around outside with the horses and talked for a while, then isaac showed up. we had a little bit of drama, but eventually it kinda settled down and everyone left, except hollie stayed the night. after that me + hollie went inside and talked some stuff out, then went to bed!
sunday- went to church, ate, then came home and slept! and thats basicly it!
today was pretty good.. this weeks going to be fun! + i cant wait til homecomin!
but i think my + my mom are about to head up to opry mills (for last min hc shoppin!!) sorry to bore you, but i just felt like an update. bye <3
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[07 Oct 2003|06:05pm] |
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this anon. commenting stuff has been goin on for too long now. ive took it and not let it get to me.. but my God.. come on, get a freakin life! do you not have anything better to do? if you want comment on my journal- not even having the balls to leave your name. dont even bother.. its not going to get you anywhere, it will just be ignored. if you want to talk shit to me.. do it to my face, so then i can proceed to tell you how i feel about you.. trust me im sure i can talk my share of shit also. but im out- bye.
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| a month has passed.. and i still cant believe it |
[05 Oct 2003|02:54pm] |
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I know your life
On earth was troubled
And only you could know the pain
You weren't afraid to face the devil
You were no stranger to the rain
Go rest high on that mountain
Son, your work on earth is done
Go to heaven shoutin'
Love for the Father and the Son
Oh, how we cried the day you left us
We gathered round your grave to grieve
I wish I could see the angels' faces
When they hear your sweet voice sing
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[02 Oct 2003|07:42pm] |
..today was HORRiBLE..
well thats really all i have to say, id rather not go into details about my day at the moment.. but im going to leave you with this poem:
with all the things that have been said.. there is just regret. what did i expect? i never wanted it to hurt more than it should. i hope your satisfied. time to close my eyes.. forget about this mess. tried to fix this trajic loss of innocence. but how can i forget.. the things i have done.
k bye <3
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| dont worry about what you dont know, lifes a dance.. you learn as you go!! |
[30 Sep 2003|07:12pm] |
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geez its been a while! i was going to write one of those long and pointless entries, but i decided against it. im sure yall dont care to hear about all the little things that have been going on in my life anways.. but i just thought id update right quick while i was thinking of it.
everythings been going pretty good lately, give or take just a few things.. but oh well, im not going to worry about them. alot has been going on.. nothing all that exciting. except ive been haning with my *musketeers* alot lately! <3 and tomorrow me + lindsey~poo are gettin dismissed in 6th to go shopping in nashville, so yes.. im very excited about that!!! ;]
but im about to go start on my homework.. except an update a little later on! bye <3
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| and what it was like, when we were together, walking along the beach.. |
[14 Sep 2003|05:58pm] |
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ah, im bored.. so i guess ill take the oppurtunity to update about my weekend!
fRiDAY * went home with amanda, got ready and went to the game! that was alot of fun!! WE WON! then a bunch of people went to don panchos and ate.- that was also fun! hah afterwards everyone had left and it was just me, amanda, allison, wesley, lanis + amanda's mom. haha all the mexicans started pilin in this one fan so we all piled in mrs. debbie's car to try to "beat they numbers" (as lanis would say) then we took them to the 'hood' (which was really just to the other side of the parkin lot) haha those two guys crack me up! then i went home with amanda.
SAtURDAY * we just layed around, being lazy all day, then my mom picked us up and we came to my house. again being lazy. some people were going to come over, but that plan didnt work out. we stayed up til like 4 talkin on the phone and stuff!
SUNDAY * woke up late, went to late church, then to eat, then came home and went back to sleep. then she left, now im just sittin here needing to start cleaning + doing homework!
geez.. im so confused about some things. i just dont know what to do or what i think?!
well this friday it was a week since david's death. the situation is getting more complicated every day.. we are begining to believe theres more to the story that maybe one or two people know, but wont say anything. but besides that things are pretty much back to normal. the past week seems like a huge dream though, its just so wierd. but i need to stop thinking about it.
so im going to go. sorry for the boring + pointless entry, i was bored ;/ but byee.. <3
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[11 Sep 2003|06:24pm] |
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it ok
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless
And maybe I'll find some peace tonight
(Chorus)
In the arms of the angel
Far away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness
Oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
(Chorus)
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| i like big women, they keep you warm in the winter + give you shade in the summer- coach snider, ha |
[10 Sep 2003|09:21pm] |
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this whole thing is like a bad dream and i want to just wake up, really bad. you really dont understand all this til its happened to you, its just so hard to explain. ive seen it on tv so many times and i never would have imagined all the emotions that go along with it, i feel like ive been watching my own life on tv. i still cant make myself believe it, even after goin through the funerals and everything. ive got to just remember that God does everything for a reason. these past few days have been such a blurr, ive been so out of it, but its over and done.. now its time to face reality.
well tonight cheered me up a WHOLE lot. i went to the CHS baseball game with katie. lindsey + allison were there. after the game we all stood around and talked with the baseball players and stuff, then sara picked me lindsey + allison up. that ride home was just so much fun, im not really sure why though. but i needed it!
one last thing.. me + madison <3 have made PPLLLAAANNSSS hahah i really hope they all work out. ahh!
but ive got to go make some phone calls, study + sleep so ill update later. bye <3
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[09 Sep 2003|09:41pm] |
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tonight would probably have to be the saddest night of my life.. (uncle's funeral visitation) my goodness. but thats all i can say right now, ill update later.
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| what seems to be te easiest way out of somethings isnt always te best |
[06 Sep 2003|01:17pm] |
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hard times are fallin' on me. even when i smile, you can see the hurt come through and it feels like it's never gonna end. nothin's been right for a long time and every step i take is a uphill climb. i feel like the whole world's gone and let me down, but i know better days will come around.
i somewhat made that poem up, just thinking of how things are right now and then it got me thinking that i wish david and stephanie would have believed better days were comming around.. and then i found this poem and so i thought id post it on here and dedicate it to them..
you took chances, one time you took one way too far.
life is a gift, given and taken at some unknown time.
your time came too soon, your life was over in a flash.
the fun you shared, the joy you brought. all just a memory - behind us.
..gosh, this whole thing still just seems so unreal. i dont think its completely hit me yet, but i dont see why someone would do away with something so precious as their life and leave the ones that cared about them high and dry with so many questions. i just dont understand at all. and im not sure how to feel?!
but im about to go take a looonnnggg bath, maybe that will help me gather my thoughts?! lol.. but ill update later. byee<3.
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[05 Sep 2003|10:04pm] |
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i dont understand, i dont understand AT ALL. i just keep asking WWWHHHYYYY??? im in shock and im in a daze. i dont know how to feel, how to act, or what to say. my cousins dad (him + my aunt have been divorced, but i still consider him my uncle) killed himself this morning. having to deal with two of these situations in a row has really made me think. one thing i know for sure is- the words "i hate my life" or "i wish i was dead/wasnt here" will never cross my mind or lips ever again. well im not sure what else to say about it.. except, WHY?!
well.. ive had better days. i actually woke up early - in a good mood + ready to go to school, then i found out the news. it was awful, i was just a wreck, so upset + so confused! my mom dismissed me in 5th and i went to my cousins house to comfort her. i had to leave though, i was holding all my emoitions in because i didnt want upset her and i was starting to make myself sick. i just feel horrible for her, i cant imagine.. well after i left there i went to eat, then came home. when i got home i just came inside and gave my dad a HUGE hug. well the day wasnt all that bad though because i was recruited to a certain table in lunch. haha that cheered me up a tad.
one last thing-i want to say thank you to all my friends that comforted me today, i really appreciate it and im lucky to have yall!!
well i think im going to go get my thoughts straighted out now. if its not too much trouble, prayers would be nice! goodbye<3.
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| its wierd how the simplest things can get you down, yet also bring you up..! |
[04 Sep 2003|04:51pm] |
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lately ive been.. rather down, im not sure why though. things were just getting out of hand and just building up. i couldnt take it much more. but this morning when i walked in school i saw some one and i just realized how stupid i was being. there this person was dealing with probably one of the most difficult things that i can think of and they just had a big smile on their face.. it changed my whole outlook on my situations.
aww. my mom and her best friend always had this little tradition for whenever they were upset. they would eat a HO-HO and drink a glass of milk. well when my mom picked me up from school today, she had gone out and bought me a box. she said she was passing the tradition down to me. corny i know, but it just thought it was really sweet!
but im about to go out to eat, shopping + a dance team meeting, so ill update later! bye<3.
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[03 Sep 2003|08:03pm] |
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i really wish i could explain the way i feel..
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[25 Aug 2003|04:44pm] |
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anyways.. i guess i should update about my weekend?!..
friday-after school i came home and rested (since i got ZERO sleep the night before!!) then i went to linz's. there we both slept some more, then got up to get ready for the jamboree (which was cancelled) so we just went to pizza hutt, got some food and then went back to her house and started to watch the ring (ah, not a good movie to watch while a big storm is in progress!!) then sarah + shea's boyfriends came over and we all danced and goofed off and stuff. then matt, wesley, cody + haskell stopped by for a while. then me and linz went to bed.
saturday-we slept llaaaattteeeee, then got up and did this + that. hollie came over, then we got ready, went to mcdonalds (sorry for the misconvienence!!! haha), walmart then the movies- it was me + matt, linz + jim, amanda + cody, and hollie + wesley! we saw freddy vs. jason.. yeah. then i came home.
sunday-went to donelson for my brothers baseball tournament, yeah not too fun, but i got to shopping so its all good!
today-first full day highschool!!! YEAH!@#$%^&* i love it!!!
omg.. i was just told something, yall just have no idea how much wieght that lifted off my shoulders. it was about this thing that i have been questioning for the longest time. ahhh! and its not what i thought it was, YESSS!!! this is just great! wahooo! ;]
but i think im gunna go now.. byee<33
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| HOW BIG A BOY ARE YAA?!?! haha |
[22 Aug 2003|01:09pm] |
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AHHHHHHHH!@#@$$#@$@^%&^*&^()@!$%$#^
last night was loads of fun (0 sleep, hah!!) + i LOVE highschool!!!
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[20 Aug 2003|08:56pm] |
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i know it happened, but i cant believe it. i dont want to believe it. its so wierd, nothing like this has ever happened to me before.. i dont know how to act or what to do/say, but.. WHY IN THE WORLD?!.. i feel so unhelpful, one of my old friends, who i tried to help many, many times killed herself today.. i just dont understand! im so shocked..
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[20 Aug 2003|07:53pm] |
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i think i have my days straight?! --
sunday night. i went to the movies to see uptown girl. yep, thats a cute one! i really liked it.. then i came home and went to bed!
monday. i sat around all morning, being lazy and stuff.. then i went to madisons! we just chilled, then kelsie arrived. daniel + cliff then came over, we swam. daniel and i discussed things.. then matt, cody + shelton came by (that didnt go over too well!) daniel + cliff left, then we all just talked and played basketball and stuff, then everyone left. then me, madi + kels went inside and i had to deal with loads of drama, but i think its all settled now! but then we went to bed.
tuesday. madison went shopping and me + kels just sat around and swam. then we got ready to go to swam lake for a back to school thingy, kels left. and me + madi decided not to go. instead- we went to see freddy vs. jason (SSSCCCAAAARRRRYYY!!) then came back to madis and went to bed.
today. i woke up, then left. my mom took me + crystal(my brothers gf) out to eat and then i went shopping for my school supplies!!! then dance practice, came home and sat here bored the rest of the night.
aahhh!! im excited about tomorrow- shopping, dance practice, dance at the football banquet (very nervous about that) , go to lindsey for a dance team + cheerleader swim party, then we all spend the night! my goodness its gunna be crazy, but i cant wait. its gunna be toooo fun!
i cant believe school is starting in like a day..!@#$%^&* mmaaann
our pregnat horse had its baby!! its a girl, a tri-colored paint!! her name is dixie.. awww! shes just adorable!! ;]
omg! omg! omg! omg! i was just told something, its absoulutely terrible.. OH MY GOD!!!! i cant believe this!!! i cant type anymore.. im in shock, ill update later..
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